The first chapter of The Life I’ve Always Wanted is entitled “We Shall Morph Indeed” – The Hope of Transformation.
Ortberg suggests that disappointment with ourselves can come from many sources but the deeper problem is “my failure to be the person God had in mind when he created me.”
“I am in a state of dis-appointment. I am missing the life that I was appointed by God to live.”
This is where I could happily reside – perpetual disappointment. Most recently I have been wondering whether I can ever change, I’m not where I want to be but I just can’t seem to find a way out. No matter how hard I try I just can’t seem to alter the way I am and generate the passion, faith and commitment I would like to possess. I came to my senses the other day and realised that for me this change is impossible, I simply can’t do it. But it’s not my job. God is the only one who can change me in this way and I guess my role in the partnership is to live a life which makes it as easy as possible for God to get on and do the changing stuff.
“The possibility of transformation is the essence of hope”
I need to learn to wrestle more with hope than simply embrace my dis-appointment. Dis-appointment will not always win the struggle. Change is possible… I hope.
